You remind me of Jane Eyre, Sam. Don't ask. I am reading it for the first time and it just occurred to me, bloop, out of the blue. If it helps, I believe everyone worth their existence needs to feel that empty space in order to figure out how best to fill it. After all, it seems a much worse fate indeed to never notice the unfulfilled to begin with, yes? I have complete and utter faith in you. I think for all women especially there are two very different sorts of realities to contend with...where love, home will bring you, and where independence will. If life was perfect, the two realities would intersect without a problem, but sadly they rarely do without an ongoing effort. Always a battle.

But again Sam- complete faith, and writing it down? Best thing for chronicling that sort of personal war. ;)